What you’re holding in your virtual hands is my latest EP, “Grace For The Morning.”
What can I say?
This year has been flipped upside down in a way that none of us ever expected. I, like many others, have had many ups and downs. Questioning the future, feeling down in despair, devoid of hope or purpose. Music stopped sounding good. Writing no longer felt good. Playing the limited shows that were available was always a combination of satisfying and terrifying, leaving a strange feeling in my chest, hoping that no one would get sick.
This EP wasn’t meant to be a “pandemic EP”! This EP was meant to be finished months ago. I was supposed to progress faster, I was supposed to be somewhere else, doing something else, not stagnating. But, here I am, like all of us, temporarily stuck. The entire pandemic, I’ve been wondering how the hell do I get “unstuck”? My life revolves around making music with people. The music, this project, is centered around the idea of humanism, of togetherness, of raw emotions, of honesty, truth-seeking… How can I seek truth alone, without in-person relationships? I am left with nothing more than existential questions.
Listening to these songs now, I am reminded of myself. I am reminded of who I am. I am reminded that I am an emotional being, a sensitive being, a loving being. I hope you feel the same way I do while listening to them. I am proud as hell to publish these songs and release them to the world.
Despite the difficult times, I must remind myself of the beauty and the love that surround us. The beauty in the pain, the struggle. The beauty in everything, in everyone. Even in times like these, we must know that love will persist, that music and art will persist, that human kindness and compassion will triumph over hate.
I don’t wish to share more about the music or the process. Yes, the experience of recording, the details of where, when, and how are relevant. But they feel too square for my writing. The people who took part in this recording are much more important—the people who, with notes on a page, instruments in hand, harmonies in their minds, mixing board on their table, and colored pencils in their hand, gave a part of themselves to create this work.
It is my intent with my music to harness my emotions and share them with the world. Those who join me in this creation, whether they know it or not, are contributing to that purpose.
Before recording the live takes in a big room in the kindergarten where Malo works, I huddled together with Malo and Martin and said: “These songs are so meaningful to me, they capture the last year of my life, a very difficult year for me. Thank you for helping me create this work. Let’s have fun.”
And I say to you, dear listener, thank you for your open ears. Have fun.
May we all continue healing, may we find freedom and love in our day to day lives, and may we one day, dance in the hurt.
Thank you to:
Martin ‘Malo’ Riebel
Buchkinder Leipzig e.V.
Gabriel Alejandro Martinez Zavala
Dedicated to my Grandfather who passed away during the COVID pandemic in 2020